pretty girls

I was thinking about a concept yesterday while I was watching this mud duck(not so pretty person) talking. She was telling her friends that pretty girls have it easier in the world, that everything is handed to them, all their relationships are perfect, and we never have to go through anything bad. At first I thought she was right I could see why she thinks pretty girls have it easy, but on the other hand I think she was so wrong. Being on the pretty side I think that it is harder. For me when people see me they automatically judge me. they I'm stuck up, conceded, dumb you name it, and to be honest I am none of those things I am the most down to earth person, I am no stuck up or conceded, I am humble and I know here I came from. I think being a pretty girl is harder because people sometimes get stuck on the beaut part of who we are and not who we are on the inside. everytime I go out I get wow your sexy, never hey I love your personality and I know what your thinking looks is what people notice first I get that but sometimes that is all people care for and that gets very tiring. My butt has a fan club of its own so many people just stair at it ask me if its real what do I eat, BLAH BLAH BLAH. Pretty girls are never trusted, guys who try to talk to me think I have tons of guys I talk to everyday or that I have a man on the side and to be honest I dont... I think being pretty is hard because people never get pass your looks and see the real you.. Sometimes I wish people could really get to know the real lil foot and who she is, and not stop at what I look like and when or how can I sleep with her... SO to all my MUD DUCKS who want to be a pretty girl it is not what it is cracked up to be... we get hurt too, people dont look pass our looks, we get judged all the time, people critizes us all the time, and somehow we end up alone because we just have way too much bagagge so coming from a pretty girl I think having a great personality will get you father in life than just being another pretty girl.

new lil foot

I am in a new place in my life. I am getting older so I know that I can't do what I use to do at 19. I use tot think that messing with all types of guys would one day get me the man of my dreams.ha! Not so much I am 24 and I swear I'm still kissing on tods. Last week it dawned on me that I was done chasing this dream and kissing on crazies that almost drove me crazy. I am going back to the girl who has a checklist and I'm going to stick by it. I rather be alone than be unhappy with someone around me.

our past

People always say that you should share your past with the one your with. Because you can't start a life together built on lies. But does sharing our past with people really make the bond stronger or do we hold it against them secertly. I know for me I have always tried to be honest, and that hasn't always turned out for the best...our past is behind us it is no longer who we are so why should the number of past relations or sex partners matter? I believe if we keeping talking about our pasts we can never move forward because we are always having to look back and feel bad...for me my past belongs with god. And I know no one is perfect so we can't judge. Let's let the past be the past and start with today

do we really change

So I thought I was starting the year off good. No problems no drama and especially no guys. I've swore off dudes for awhile cuz I thought I am really tired of getting the same types of dudes and I thought for once in my life I'm not gonna catch any feelings for anyone or let guys run the show... so. One day I was listening to my friend talk about how she can DAte all these guys n not catch any feeling. I thought to myself how fun. So I decided I was gonna do the same. So I started going out n I met this guy named aramon.cute boy plays football. So I thought how perfect...so we started to hang out n chill I thought he was cool but so not my type.. so we would make out n I trainned myself not to like him, and. It worked... problem he ended up super crazy he tried to say I was like all his girls...that I wasn't a good girl. Than he took my phone went through it and then tried to pin stuff on me. So I just went home. He called me the next day thinking we were fine, I realized something I can't be anybody. But me. I thought I could be casual and it would be different but hey I still got crazy....

trapping a guy

I was listening to my friends and we all know how girls are. when we see something that we want we get it, and when "think" we have found that right one... well he is the right one b/c he has his own everything and security is important to us females... but nonetheless, that is not the point. the point is that we will do anything to trap a man into either moving into the next part of the relationship or we will try to trap him into marrying us, either way, those plans are set up to fail... we shouldn't have to trap someone or strike fear in them to be w/ us... Ladies that is dumb and childish we need to get to a point where we trust ourselves and we know who we are and if that man doesn't want you then that is his lost we need to stay this pity party for ourselves, and then we get mad when the marriage fails... Hello, its your fault. allow stuff to happen naturally don't force it.

NEW YEAR To GET RIGHT.....

This last week all of my friends, and people at church have been talking about New Years Resolutions, and to be honest I am one of those people that do not believe in them.. Why you ask, well think about everyone who makes them somehow finds themselves unhappy, or just stop doing what they said they would do for the new year. Saying your gonna loose weight in the new year is dumb... for one we should always try to stay healthy we don't need a reason to amp us up for it. Or saying I'm quiting drinking in the new years, what happens when your at a party and cant drink... Or my favorite I swear No more guys I'm laying off of them... and then you meet the sexiest Guy one the planet but you cant talk to him b/c you made up a stupid rule... So here is My thing, everyday I plan to work on loving me more and I know there are going to be days where I fall of the band wagon and somehow I will get back up. I will have more fun, and on the days I don't I will think of the days that I did. I will eat better and for the days that I cheat.. heck I will enjoy that piece of cake and pizza to the fullest.. we Only live once... I will learn to allow myself to want a relationship and if he doesn't come around well... then I can think of this time as a time of growth... I don't drink so that wont be an issue...Lol BUT we need to stop putting so much pressure on us being perfect and try being perfect in our own imperfections. And if you want something don't wait till the new year to do it make you your motivation and do it anytime.. whether it is right now or six months from now... lastly, remember what you want also wants you...

my life

my life has slowed down a whole lot of these past few years, I remember 19 was the year that changed my life forever.. I am one of those girls that never really got to go out my mom was super crazy and didnt allow me to go out. so I started hanging out w/ one of my high school friends. we started going out all the time, and then we started going out to 21 and up clubs. I thought we were so cool. I thought that it was so fun. dancing, talking to guys... but somehow i lost myself in that world... I was no longer the sweet girl everyone knew, and I saw what people were talikg about.. I just wanted to fit in I was tired of being that girl that watches from the side line, I wanted to be on the active roster. So I did. first came the club, then came the boys next thing i knew I became those girls that I hated all my life. God I found myself in a mist of boy problems and I hate boy problems. Now looking back, and see how far I hace come I realized that, life is about growing not trying to fit in these boxes so we can be like everyone else. I know now that I am not the girls that like to be in the clubs, or drink or have many guys around me. I'm just simple me.. I rather be hated for who I am than be loved for who I am not.