Dating and all its Perks....

Today was a difficult one for me. I hate dating so I don't date. I hate the awkward meetings and the trying-to-get-to-know yous its all crap. And in the time we live in people don;t really want to get to know the other person we all have motives and we all think about ourselves first. So I gave up dating but recently my friend said I should just get out there....TEST THE WATERS.Ha so much for that idea. I did what she said and to be honest I felt like a dog in heat and all the guys were after me. This has never happened usually when you wanna date there is no one around but when you don't want to date everyone is lined up at your front door. Don't get me wrong I hope to get married one day and have kids I just didn't think now is the time. I am in Grad school and working... Really a relationship???? So I met this really nice guy and he was cool and we hit it off right off the at but some how he in one week he became crazy wanting to see me all the time and calling me....I hate clingy people I love to just spend time w/ myself and chill. So I have been avoiding him...I know its rude but I hate having to tell someone I don't want to talk to you anymore. So he has been calling, and texting finally I just told him I am not ready for anything I got too much on my heart and head to deal with love and it is my fault for thinking I could date. He seemed pretty upset and then tries to change my mind and I hate that so much... Please when someone tries to break up let them go its not cute to beg, So the moral of my story is dating and breaking up sucks... Especially when your the one breaking up with people I feel terrible... Maybe next time I will just listen t myself....