The Box

The box
someone once said to me that I didn't live to live. I thought to myself we all have a box that we live in and we all live in different ways. Some live without any limits and others live in between the lines. However, who are we to tell people that the way they live is wrong. I kept thinking that My living wasn't real and then I realized that I live and love differently from a lot of people and that is a risk that I am willing to take. What is living if we all live the same? What's the point of taking risks if all of the risks are the same? Next time someone tells you your not living to live. Just think about your own box and know your living to live for you!

Dating

Its a new year and a new time for change. So I decided that I was no longer going to be that person that cared for everyone and allowed everyone to walk all over me. I decided to be that person who just dates with no intention of being with one person. I have never done this before because I worry about what people feel and I do not like having people's feelings in my hand but this year I was not going to pay attention to it. So far it has not worked out for me. Well I don't care but now I have gotten a lot of guys that wanted to be with me, it was never like this before. it started of with D. He was younger then me but he had something about him that I wanted to be around so I did. we were talking hanging out and having fun, then fun turned into I like you then I like you turned into were working towards a relationship and I think I got scared and walked away but I realized he wasn't the one for me. He is too young. then came G. well he started in Nov. but we really didn't talk till the end of Dec. we talk off ad on but I feel like he has this love hate relationship with me. Its like he wants to have me close but I won't hear from him for like a week, it doesn't bother me cuz I don't want to be serious with him neither. Then came this guy well we will call him crazy. he started to stalk me.lol this whole dating thing is not what it is cracked up to be.... Maybe I'll just stop I just don't see how people do this....

Friends

I have been doing some serious thinking lately. All of my friends say that guys and women can't be friends. I beg to differ. So I went down the list of all of my guy friends and it made me really wonder... Can we really be friends or do we all have a motive on why we are friends we the opposite sex? Some people believe that it is harder to be friends with an attractive person it is almost impossible for that to happen. They say it is easier to befriend someone who is not so cute. But does that mean it makes it easier for the not so cute person as well? Or do they have strong feelings as well and they are hoping for the chance that the other person will see it? I think that it is possible for men and women to be friends but we have to question up front why we are friends at first. I know that has always been a problem for me. I think every guy wants to be my friend but in reality they are trying to get closer to make their move.., Again before all opposite sex friendships began we need to make sure we know the motive first.
Who knew friendships were so hard....